For me, these past couple months have been madness. Living in a world where there is a global pandemic was not something that would have crossed my mind. Low and behold here we are. I have struggled with losing my job but being blessed with a new one. To be perfectly honest I have felt distant from God, but it’s all my own doing. And for some reason coming to terms with the fact that he will still provide for me has been a little hard. This past Sunday my pastor titled his sermon “Losing it” He spoke on losing your life to Christ, being a living sacrifice and laying it all done at his feet. Your gifts, talents, job, family, and friends. After he spoke my church and I all came to a point of re-surrendering our lives.
I then realised that for me I have not felt like an empty vessel ready to be filled with His desires and wants for a while now. I came to terms with the fact that yes, I had fallen many a time, but He still chose to show me favour in my job and life. I had to come before him and say that I was done with the past and the things that I have been struggling with. I was forgiven and it was time to genuinely believe it.
The fact is that no sin, nothing at all can separate us from the love of Jesus. To be a living sacrifice and die unto yourself and your flesh is something to practice daily. When you have God living inside of you and you believe his love and strength is in you also, taking up your cross is so possible and beautiful.
Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it.” Luke 9-23-24 NIV